Despite being unemployed, Ravel had been busy all day. Theo wasn’t lying when she said to expect Onesie Above and Pacifier Crazies to reach out soon, they had at around noon and Ravel had since been communicating with them, Theo, and her mods to help schedule when these ad reads would be. Her onesie and soaked diaper belied the rather adult look of stress on Ravel’s face. In addition to the companies’ spokespeople Ravel had also been talking to Michael. Stuffies had never sent her a multi-page agreement with their ad reads, but Onesies above and Pacifier Crazies sure did. She needed someone with a little bit of knowledge to look over them. While Micheal had agreed to do that for free, the price Ravel was paying was more in teasing.
Mickey: You really are going full baby huh?
Ravel rolled her eyes looking at the Chaos message, but she couldn’t really deny her friends assessment as she sat in her onesie and diaper ready for a change. They had chosen Chaos to communicate so Ravel could more easily send files over.
Bandsy: Well, it pays the bills.
Mickey: And I’m sure it’s not because you like it.
Bandsy: -_-
Mickey: This is the price for getting your documents analyzed for free. Though for what they’re paying, you could have just paid for it.
Bandsy: They haven’t paid me yet. Are they really giving me that much?
Mickey: You didn’t look at the amount?
Bandsy: I’m a baby remember. I can’t read.
Mickey: Using Chaos remarkably well for a baby that can’t read.
Bandsy: Any amount they’re paying me is greater than zero. I’m kinda in a corner and need to take it.
Mickey: Lose your job or something?
Ravel winced a little. In all the chaos she never told Micheal what happened with her job.
Bandsy: It’s uh complicated.
Mickey: Oh shit. For real?
Bandsy: Yeah, sorry I’ve just been so busy trying to go full time streaming I haven’t had time to tell you.
Mickey: Well, I guess I can’t fault you there. Good on you though, not a lot of streamers go full time.
Bandsy: Most of em that do go by choice though.
Mickey: Sometimes life kicks us in the right direction.
Bandsy: I guess that’s a positive spin on it. How are we looking? No secret deals with the devil in there?
Mickey: Nope it’s all pretty typical stuff. Just don’t say anything negative about the brand during your stream is the main thing, and actually wear the brands. Then you get a fat paycheck.
Bandsy: Good to know. Do you think it’s weird Stuffies never sent me one of these?
Mickey: I dunno. I’m not a streamer lawyer, though maybe I could be and get me some of that diaper streamer dosh from you.
Bandsy: -_- Be serious.
Mickey: I mean I really don’t know. It is a little weird, but it’s not like a red flag or anything. Stuffies in general has been kind of fast and loose about the whole thing. They strike me as just trying to promote a community.
Bandsy: I guess.
Mickey: Got some concerns?
Ravel had to think for a moment. Really a lot of things Stuffies had been doing were setting off small red flags. Micheal’s reasoning did check out though. Theo had been very friendly to her and seemed genuine about her interest in the abdl community. Maybe they were being a little more generous just for the sake of growing the community.
Bandsy: Yeah, but I don’t know if it’s just the stress of everything. Maybe I’m reading too much into it.
Mickey: It is worth it to trust your instincts sometimes. Though, in this case, I think maybe you are just looking to hard into it.
Bandsy: You’re probably right.
Mickey: Keep me posted and I’ll let you know if it’s something to really worry about. Try not to stress too much I’ve heard that gives you incontinence.
Bandsy: There it is.
Mickey: Hehe.
Bandsy: I mean you know how this community works right? You can’t threaten me with incontinence that’s the end goal. I’m just gonna stress more.
Mickey: …. Ok not being stressed gives you incontinence.
Bandsy: Fuck off.
Bandsy: And also thank you.
Mickey: Lol you’re welcome. Sorry to say that I’m prob gonna start missing your streams.
Bandsy: I guess that’s fair. You didn’t strike me as the diaper streamer type.
Mickey: Cuz I’m not. Don’t take it personally though.
Bandsy: Nah you’re good. We can still hang out.
Mickey: I’ll have to mind the smell, I guess.
Bandsy: Rude, I don’t even do that in my diapers.
Mickey: Yet.
Micheal didn’t see or pick up on the hesitation Ravel felt at that final message. She definitely wasn’t doing that in her diapers right now, but if the trend with her continued she would be before too long. Even as she thought this, she accepted it as a reality. She wans’t even that bothered by the idea, but bothered enough to not really want to talk about it right now.
Bandsy: ttyl.
Ravel ended the conversation in a way that didn’t tip Micheal off to the nerve he hit.
There was one last thing Ravel needed to do before she really got into preparing for all of her upcoming ad reads. She felt like she owed some kind of heads up to her community. It wouldn’t be good to surprise them with a diaper the next stream then a onesie and pacifier the following streams. The idea made her nervous. This kind of announcement meant that a good portion of her community was going to leave, though no doubt just as many, if not more, would join to take their place. What really bothered her was likely the same thing that bothered those fans that were leaving. It was change.
Her stream was changing, she was changing. More and more she was falling down the abdl rabbit hole. She was becoming not only an abdl, but a diaper streamer. Change was scary especially when she was the subject of that change.
Ravel took a moment to put a dress over her onesie to be somewhat professional and sat down at her desk. She fired up her camera to make a rare prerecorded video.
“Hey guys I just wanted to make a quick announcement to get you up to speed before the next stream, because some things are changing,” Ravel nervously cleared her throat.
“I guess first things first. I've quit my day job, and I’m moving into streaming full time. Now what that means for you all is more streams,” Ravel raided her hands excitedly but spoke in a way that let everyone know that wasn’t the real consequence. “This also means that I can’t really afford to be picky any more. I need to make money; I need to make significantly more money than I’m making now. I know that until now I’ve been very picky about what ads I take. I know I work a lot with Stuffies, and I’ve collabed with diaper streamers like Cereal and Sally, but I’ve tried to not go full diaper streamer.”
“That’s probably going to stop,” Ravel cleared her throat again and looked down. “I can already tell you that next stream I will be sponsoring and wearing a stuffies diaper, so just by definition alone I am a diaper streamer now. It’s probably not going to stop there. All the ad opportunities I have right now are from abdl companies, and I really need to run ads so that means on most the of streams to come I’m probably going to be in something abdl.”
“Now I want to say right now, I don’t want to insinuate that I’m doing this just for that money,” Ravel blushed a little as she continued to explain. “I’ve been …” there was a pause as she searched for the right word. “Exploring this in my free time since signing on with stuffies. I am genuinely into this stuff. I guess I am an abdl.” Ravel looked off for a moment contemplating what she just said aloud. “Yeah, anyway I’m just saying that I’m not selling out, or at least I’m not selling out that much. My opinions aren’t going to be bought. I’m not going to sell you things I don’t believe in or use myself. And I'm not a tourist coming in here. I am new to it but I'm just as much into abdl as anyone else is.”
“Yeah, that’s basically it,” Ravel said calmly. “We are a diaper stream now, but I want to say that, beyond some cute aesthetics, I don’t want the stream to change that much. We’re still gonna be gaming and hanging out. There’s no fundamental change there, and now that I’m unemployed I can do it like three times a day. We’re still gaming I’m just gonna be doing it in diapers now.”
“So, I hope that things will stay the same enough that you all will stay, but if you don’t want to stay that’s fine too. I know for a lot of you this is going to be a bridge to far and that’s ok. You know Mickey was the same way and we’re still friends so I hope you believe me when I say there’s no ill will from me. I hope you stay, but I totally understand if you want to go.”
“I wanted to give you guys a heads up before I surprise you on the next stream. I still hope you’ll enjoy. I know a lot of you are probably really excited for my diaper debut. I know those guys are gonna have fun, but I hope that everyone else can have fun too. See you all soon.”
Ravel reached over and stopped the recording. She slid headphones over her head and put on a video essay as background noise as she edited the small message. She didn’t even really pay attention to the essay and fell into a trance on her editing where she was alone with her thoughts while she was doing it.
Saying out loud that she was an abdl made it all sink in more than it had until now. It might have been the first time she had said the actual words. She was an abdl, and she was a diaper streamer. She had stopped denying the abdl part long ago, but not denying it was different than acknowledging it. She let the words spoken out loud sit with her while she finished her editing.
Her conclusion was that the description was accurate. She was an abdl, had been for a while at this point. She felt better about embracing it than she did about trying to run from it.
Her video was edited and posted, and once it was live she continued her conversations with the various reps.
AUTHORS NOTE: Here's another chapter everyone. Looks like Bandsy has officially gone full diaper streamer. Some might consider this the end goal but there's still story left to tell. If you want to see that story right now consider subscribing over on ream